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LONELY

Reached a point in life (again) where I am feeling lonely. Utterly alone. Nobody who actually cares for/ about me. Sheesh. Hate it but can’t seem to help it. Have a couple of close friends, but they are too occupied with themselves. Nobody to pamper n pander to me n these moods of mine.
😦
Yup. Lonely.

why

“It hurts when it doesn’t matter(to you). Not as much as it should anyway.”

Need to LET GO!

Need to LET GO!

letting-go-hands

Letting go is hard…

I am letting you go 
It’s time I do
I am letting you go
Coz it’s only fair I do!
You don’t care for me 

The obsessive way I do
And it’s draining for me
To keep on loving you

Now it’s time.
Now you and I
Need to accept
Need to let go

Need to let go

Of the bond 
We so carefully nurtured
And kept just so…

©Sherin 2014   

Happy New Year

Had started with a load of “positive thoughts”.
Crashed on the first day itself!
Despair n heartaches
Just another year to live & exist

Happy New Year to me!

BAH… HUMBUG!

Words and Deeds

       “By the words they say
        And the deeds  they do
        They seem so different,
        They seem so two.
Truly feel confused and left out when people,all kinds and everywhere, put on the mask of duplicity. It hurts when one’s naive trust is so abused and trampled on. Oh no, not for me are the grave misdeeds but rather the tiny breaks n cracks that amount to a lot.

It feels worse when its people who you have gradually become close to. I naively believe, as a first reaction, that “what I see is what I get”, Though the fact or reality is to the contrary. People say something  but they rarely mean it literally. it breaks my heart so. Though I practically n intellectually know that I should just let it be. This is the the world, this is life (no matter who the people are- friends or “believers”)
Nay, I am not saying I am the best or that I have no mask, I have. Many masks. Its just that time and again  I tire and grow weary of it. Though this I will say to my defense that I wear my masks to protect me. I wish I didn’t have to. I so wish I was born into a world of love and trust.

Love-Like

     Love-Like       

If only they persist
If only they care
If only they bother enough
To take care

Wanting too much love
Undying affection
Is what bothers me
From laying quite bare.

Just enough to get by
Not too much to doze by
I take precautions
To keep love and like by…

© Sherin 2013

‘COZ I I WON’T ASK FOR MORE…

‘COZ I I WON’T ASK FOR MORE…

I won’t ask for more
I will stay still
I won’t push for more
I will stand still

To ask would be wretched
To be refused even worse
Cause you don’t seem to understand
The words these lips so hesitanly utter

You deem it proper to say I can
You deem it apt to do as you decide

Yet do you stop to think
Would it matter to her?
Do you stop and ask me
Any Thing?

You do as you see
You do as you please
And then you turn around
And wonder why!?

You pulled me too close
You pushed me afar
And then you turn around
And wonder why

No
Its time I put a stop to this
Its time I quit that wait

I won’t ask for more
I will stay still
I won’t push for more
I will stand still
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